I feel like I'm already a bad lesbian. Truth is, I don't like animals of any kind. I didn't grow up with animals, I didn't have any special pets growing up or feel any need to get a pet. Sure, I had moments of puppy envy when I was very young. But on the whole that stopped after an unprovoked and frightening dog bite at age 11.
As I'm moving forward now in my journey of "coming out" I'm starting to question my new found identity. Who exactly am I with this new piece of me that I'm acknowledging? I want a change, and I think this merits one. I don't want to go forward with no changes, so I figure I have to start working on how this identity of mine is going to shift.
I've already started to think about it- now that it's out and I don't have to be so afraid of people finding out- what can I do? How can I make my being gay part of my identity? And how can I do this in an authentic way?
It's freaking me out and I know that the only way for it not to is for me to meet some other gay folks who will help me realize that my identity is what I make of it.
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